New Wave of Nerd

Surprise!!! An update! Your eyes are not deceiving you, I actually had time to make an upadate.

I am being hit with Spring Fever so hard. I am already suffering from hallucinations,  and I expect to break out into a rash soon. I can’t stop day dreaming about long boarding, skateboarding and biking. I am going to be outside ALL summer. I catch myself staring out the window at the shed that holds my motorcycle, James Dean. I am so excited for the rest of the snow to melt, and the gravel to be cleaned up. I want to get all greasy and oily doing the maintenance and clean up on James. All of my combined excitement for the adventures listed above does not match the excitement I feel about girls starting to wear short shorts and sun dresses. YES! I would like to dedicate anything productive and helpful I have ever done in my life to the girls in shorts shorts and sun dresses. I appreciate you, with every fiber of my being.

Okay! Anyways! Back to the point. I made videos for you! These two videos focus on the social aspect of my transition to date. Next week I will post a video updating about the physical stuff. I am going to the doctor tomorrow to get some small problems checked out. I will let you know what is going on in the video.

Here is part one of the video! In this half I talk about the social aspects of my transition. I am trying to find the balance between having privacy but not being stealth, all while educating and being open. I also break out my stern voice about proper pronoun usage.

Part two! I am not bi! I thought for a period of time that testosterone was going to make me attracted to guys, and I had prepared myself for that. But that hasn’t happened! I am now just more attracted to girls. I didn’t think was that even possible, because I have always really really really loved girls. I also discuss my awkward social skills, and the minor culture shock I am experiencing hanging out with straight people. I am trying my best to keep up and fit in with the new friends and experiences I am having.

Overall, life is amazing! I am so happy with my transition, and being recognized as a guy. So happy that I am always out enjoying it and having fun, which is why my updates have slowed down a bit. So you can’t hate me too much, I am finally getting  the chance to live the life I have always wanted.

I hope all of your lives are going wonderfully as well!

That is all for now Champs!

SUMMER!
Okay, I will explain that sudden outburst. By seeing the word summer, you thought of summer and all of its glory. A few hundred people will read this update and think of summer. Maybe, just MAYBE, all those collective thoughts will make summer happen quicker.

Think of the shorts shorts people! I am  going to leave you alone with those thoughts. Enjoy ;)

Your Pal,

Avery Eros Finley

Hey Lovely!

Happy Almost Valentine’s Day!

My interview in Outwords Inc. has finally made its was to Saskatoon. I picked up a copy yesterday at the campus pride center. They are also available at the Avenue Community Center. Pick up a copy!

In the video below I talk about how I feel about the interview, as well as how other people have reacted. I also use a strange, but appropriate, car metaphor to explain how I feel about my junk.

I hope you all like the new James Dean hair. I love it! Hopefully it will bring in the babes this Valentine’s weekend. If it doesn’t I am resorting to the ‘I am named after the Greek God of sex, desire and love’ line. Or if things are really looking bleak I may pull out the “Go, Go Gadget..” line. Let’s hope it doesn’t come to that.

Have a weekend full of love and beauty! Don’t just buy a card, or flower for your special someone. Be creative, show them you really care. If you are single, trust that the soul of your soul is out there and that one day you will discover them.

Love, love, love

Eros

Transition update!!!

Hello New Wave Nerd Followers!

Welcome to the newbies brought in from the Outwords Inc. magazine article. Prepare yourself for awkward cuteness.

Sorry, this update took a little longer than usual. It is midterm week at university, and I have been studying so hard it feels like my brain has turned to liquid. I am basically done my exams and essays so here is my transition update. It is spring break after this week of school, and you know what that means? It means I am going to update so much that you guys are going to get sick of me! I am going to be like that annoying person who tells you in vivid detail what they had for breakfast, and how they picked lint off their clothes. You are going to sit there smiling and nodding while inside your head you will be thinking about what kind of underwear I am wearing, or who Oprah has on today. I promise, promise, promise that there will be a few updates in the next 2 weeks. I will be stuck here all alone while everyone else is off having crazy adventures during their spring break.

This first video is mostly about the physical changes I have noticed lately. X marks the spot! My treasure trail is coming in!

Catholic school girls are not as much fun as they are cracked up to be. I had a decent make out only to be told after that Jesus doesn’t love me. Confused? Yeah, me too. Watch video for the full story.

In the end all it takes for me to feel better are glittery explosives and a few laughs. Imagine how perfect my life would be if I had a pet unicorn.

I will update in the next couple days about the Outwords Inc. article, I just have to get my copy first.

Your Dreamboat,

Avery Eros Finley

TESTOSTERONE UPDATE!

I hope you all love the new site as much as I do. Bookmark it! Tell your friends! Tell your Grandmama!

Sorry, I haven’t updated about my life outside of my transition. I have been super busy with school. If I were to update about my personal life the title of the post would probably be something like; “Redheads, and Avery + Caffeine = BFF, and Concerts! Oh My!” I will do my best to do an update with that title soon. There will be a rant, or as I prefer to call them a ‘charming ramble’, probably about the super annoying mass emails people send out when they missed a class and need notes.

I hope you like the videos!

If any of you have dealt with cankles due to Edema I would really appreciate tips, or advice. I would also be down for a foot massage.

Don’t feel bad if you are one of the people who hasn’t recognized me at first glance! I think it is awesome I have changed enough for that to happen. If you aren’t in the category of people who have made out with me and don’t recognize me at first glance, and you want to be we can make out so you do fit into that category!
P.S. All I want to do is make out. All the time! I didn’t think it was possible to want to make out more than I did a month ago, but it is all I want to do now. It is hard to concentrate on anything else.

Thank you for watching/reading. I will do my best to post the “Redheads, and Avery + Caffeine = BFF, and Concerts! Oh My!” update soon. I am thinking about incorporating videos into my personal life posts, because people seem to like the videos the most. That way we could take field trips together! I could record the videos at locations related to something in that post. There are so many beautiful and interesting places in Saskatoon that could provide a nice background. Instead of my telling you about a nice cafe/concert/walk/dance party I could actually show you it. Show you the city and adventures through my eyes. Let me know if you would be down for that.

Love, love, love,

Avery Eros Finley.

Transition update!

Hey Champ!

The big news I mentioned in my last post is revealed in this first video!
It also contains me professing my love for Tegan and Sara. I really love Tegan and Sara. Tonight is going to be a wicked night because they are putting on a concert here. I am loading myself up with energy drinks. I am thinking about shooting them up into my veins for better results. I am taking a break from studying, and to stay out late partying. All I really need to do tonight to charm a lady is repeat a Tegan and Sara lyric to them, that is the magic key. One quick “Baby, I feel you in my heart and I don’t even know you” will lead to me getting to know them ;) So stay tuned for my next typed update, because it will be full of the shenanigans that happen tonight.
Also in this video are the the physical changes I have noticed recently. Dununu Nunununun Teen Stash!

This second video is about how being Trans effects my confidence level, and as a result my interactions with girls. Note the mad voice crack around the 3:00 minute mark -- Sexy.

Thanks for watching!
Everyone who is going to the concert, HAVE FUN! And be safe.

- Avery Eros Finley

Hello Everyone!

If you are reading this then you are aware that I have a new website! Isn’t it nice? Thank you NLP for the beautiful website. All my past posts have been moved here, and this is where all my new posts will be added. Bookmark it!

Welcome to the first time visitors who found this link on Youtube. Don’t worry this isn’t going to be like the first day at a new school or job, I won’t make you stand up and tell everyone about yourself. That is my job.

As usual I have a couple videos for you guys.

This first one is an update about a few really exciting things going on in my life connected to my transition, as well as the most recent changes.

Question and Answer Pt. 2!

Thank you for asking your questions! I’m sorry I didn’t get to them all, I will make another Q&A video in the future. Keep asking questions.

Thank you for all your support!

I will do my best to get a typed update posted in the next couple days on my life and recent adventures.

I wish you all a beautiful year of growth and happiness in 2010!

- Avery Eros Finley

Hey Champs!

This is a T update! There are two videos this post.

I’ve been on T for 3 weeks now, I had my fourth shot this morning.

The first video is about the changes of this week, and an Intro/explanation to the second video.

Here is the Q&A video. Send in your questions, so they can be part of the next Q&A video.
Don’t worry, I won’t say who asked what.

Random, personal, silly, serious -- Ask away!
Anything you are curious about.
You can send me your questions by posting a comment on this entry, facebook email/chat, text, or smoke signals.

Thanks for watching Lovely!

- Avery Eros Finley

This is my T video update for the week. I had my third shot yesterday, so I have been on testosterone for two weeks and one day.

If you haven’t watched my earlier videos I suggest you watch them too. You could always use a little more of your favorite Dreamboat in your life.

In this first video you will find: the changes I have noticed in the last two weeks,
how my parents are dealing with my transition,
how my acquaintances are dealing with my transition,
my camera being lame,
and me pouring out my heart out about how amazing my friends are.

This video is about pronouns. How people have been reacting, or not reacting, to changing them. How I react to the way people use pronouns. Why I picked the name I did, and how my name change has gone.

This video is about the changes I am most looking forward to, and what I plan on doing with them.
It just just a lil guy, and packed full of my random awkwardness. It cut off at the end, but I was just laughing at how funny I think I am -- so it is for the best.

Thanks for watching the videos! Keep the feedback coming! I appreciate all of it, especially when you compliment my manliness haha. I blame you guys if I develop an ego the same size as Kanye West’s.

My next update will be a written blog, and it will be posted in a couple of days. I am super busy visiting with friends who are back in town for the holidays. A lot has happened, and more is to come, so I will have lots to write about.
My next T video will be up on Monday after my 4th shot!

Happy Holidays! Happy Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Solstice!
Whatever you celebrate remember that a hug, and some quality time can mean a lot more than a microwave or clothes.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday full of love, and beauty.

- Avery Eros Finley

So this update is mostly going to be all videos. In future updates about T the videos won’t be as long, because I’m not going to tape the shot each time. Watch both, they are all interesting. I think so anyways, and I make the rules for this blog haha.

Okay! So the videos in this post consist of:

The injecting of my second shot. Ow. Be prepared for lots of swearing.

Changes in the first week/ramblings about the changes that are to come.

If you guys have any suggestions, comments, ideas or anything at all. Let me know, I love to hear from you.

- Peace

On Monday, December 7 around 3:oopm I had my first shot of testosterone.

Everything fell into place so well that day. I was excited and nervous, but I was also trying to prepare myself in case I was to hit some barriers and not get prescribed testosterone.

Earlier in the week I had to get a bunch of blood work done for this appointment with my Endocrinologist. The majority of the boxes on the purple blood work sheet were checked off.
They look five vials of blood, and I got to pee in a cup. Yippie! Peeing in a cup is not easy, and it is made much harder when you haven’t had anything to drink for 13 hours.
If the doctor found anything wrong in this blood work, he wouldn’t prescribe me T. I was really worried about that happening.

I was so worried about things going wrong on Monday that I had a nightmare about it. I was up at Waskesiu lake with some friends. I wasn’t in a clinic, I was in a log cabin filled with people I didn’t know. I only knew one person in the room, and that is one of my nurse friends. In the dream, he and his team took FIFTEEN vials of blood from my leg. After that he suddenly STABBED me in the ass with a giant turkey baster sized needle. It hurt so bad in the dream that I woke up clutching my side.

After that lovely start to the day I went about getting ready for the appointment. I took a few ‘before’ pictures, so I can keep track of my changes. I put some extra thought into what I was going to wear, after all it was the most important day of my life. I decided on my favourite Superman shirt.

If you know me at all, you know that I love Superman. It is safe to bet that if I am carrying a bag with me it has a Superman comic in it. There are many reasons as to why Superman is so important to me. Too many to list in this post, so I will write a separate one on it. What is important to know is that Superman’s character is one that I look up to in my life. It was important for me to wear my Superman shirt on Monday, because as I would say later that day; “No longer [am I] going to be Lois Lane, but Superman . . . Or let’s be honest, Clark Kent.”

My personal Superhero that day was my friend Sierra. (That is her actual name; not one made up for my blog, she already has one of those. Muhahaha. But in the videos from Monday you are going to see who she is, so using her code name would completely defeat the purpose of having a code name.) She is one of my closest friends. Without her, my life would have been much harder and filled with much less happiness. I truly am forever in debt to her. If she ever needs a kidney, she can count on one from me.
Sierra came with me to my appointment, and gave me my first shot. I was really nervous about the appointment. I had no idea what it was going to be like, so I am grateful to have had her at my side.

When I went to pick her up to come to the appointment, she gave me cupcakes from the new cupcake store! Yeah! Speciality Cupcakes! Favourite person ever!

My appointment was at the Royal University Hospital, which is more of a maze than a hospital. After wandering around lost for a while we finally found the right area.
We saw a giant bag of fluff along the away to my doctor’s office. < That is really not vital information, but it was a really random thing to see.

I got asked every question a doctor could ever ask, and than more. I got asked multiple times, in a very serious manner, if I had to pee. I did, because I was nervous, but I said no. They way they were asking was like it was the most vital piece of information they could get from me.

After the FBI like question period I got to strip naked, and put on one of those fun hospital gowns.

Yippie. After this appointment Sierra knows everything about me.

I really had no idea that the appointment was going to be that intense. It is amazing how an open backed hospital gown makes you feel. I suddenly got super senses, and noticed things in the room that made me worry. One of them being a giant tube of lube. I had a mini melt down thinking the doctor was going to give me a pap. The second thing I noticed was a chart of the levels of acne a person can get. The last level was horrific. I told Sierra if my acne got that bad that she had to shoot me.

During this freak out/awkward ‘I’m naked for the first time around you’ moment Sierra once again came to the rescue. Her random goofy commentary through the whole appointment kept me calm. Without her pointing out the nurses shiny shoes, telling stories about her first pap, and general witty comments, I would have felt terrified and alone.

Turns out I over reacted about the tube of lube. When the doctor came back into the room, he did a few minor tests. One of which crushed the tiny little bit of hope I had left that I was actually not female. He did this with two measurements and a calculator. Apparently my hip to waist ratio is that of a “female phenotype”. Thanks Doc, for killing my dream of having hidden testies behind my uterus. I did however feel much more secure in his skill after he said phenotype, it is a very doctor-ish word.

He took my blood pressure, which I think must have been high because he asked a couple questions related to it after, then left. I have never had blood pressure problems, but I was super worried that there was a problem and I wouldn’t be able to get my T. I am guessing it was high because of how nervous I was, and because all I ate that day was a bowl of cereal and a cupcake.

Curse you, delicious red wine chocolate cupcake!

The hospital gown was total over kill on the doctors part. There was no need for me to strip completely naked for the tests he did. Leaving my gitch on would not have been a problem. I think he was mad with power.

My blood pleasure must have been okay, because he came back in and started talking about the different kinds of testosterone! I successfully jumped through the last hoop!

I decided that I wanted to take my testosterone in the form of weekly 100mg injections. It is the best option for what I am looking for. It causes changes to happen at the quickest rate, and it is the cheapest. I am not afraid of needles, so doing a shot every week won’t be too bad. The other options of testosterone are in pill, patch or cream form. They are all more expensive and have more cons to them. The cream can transfer onto people that the wearer touches. Which is bad, because most women don’t want to grow a moustache. The pill is harder on the liver than the other forms. The patch is more slow acting than the injections.

The doctor kind of explained how to do an injection, but he didn’t explain well enough. His explanation it involved a drawing of a butt . . . Needless to say Sierra and I went home and watched Youtube videos for a better explanation. I wanted to get injected into the quad, because I thought Sierra had already seen enough of me for the day.

I am not impressed with that area of the appointment. He should have gone over step by step how to do an intramuscular injection. Neither one of us had ever given a needle before, and for him to let us figure out how to do it on our own is irresponsible.

After some hugging, happy dances, fist pumps, and ‘rawrs’ (squeals) of triumph we went to fill the prescription.

One of my best buds is Trans, and was just prescribed testosterone too. He had a lot of trouble finding a pharmacy that carried it. He had to go to four pharmacies before he found one that had it. This was one of the barriers I was worried about hitting. I went to the pharmacy that filled his prescription hoping they still had some left.

I lucked out! They had some!

I walked out 1 vial of testosterone, 10 needles, 100 alcohol swabs, and 1 tube of acne cream richer. Woop! After watching Youtube videos and reading some directions on the internet, it was time for my first shot!

You can see a few things in this video:

1) Avery doesn’t understand not to touch sterile things.

2) This is what happens when the doctor doesn’t explain how to get medicine out of a vial. (I googled it, and now know for the next shot)

3) How awesome Sierra is.

4) How funny I am.

After we hugged it out my camera decided to run out of memory, and didn’t capture the actual shot. Isn’t that how it always happens? It is okay though, I got the best parts. I will video tape my next dose, and actually give you the money shot (penetration haha).

The shot didn’t hurt at all! Not even a little bit uncomfortable. It went much smoother than the process of getting the T out of the vial did. It has been 3 days and I am still alive so even though the shot went a little shaky it didn’t hurt me.

There you have it folks! That was my first shot of testosterone. I am now on my way to become more me.

Keep checking in, more updates are on the way. I have a new plan for updates -

Once a week I will post an update related to trans stuff. With each of these updates will be pictures and/or a video. That way the changes I’ve experienced will be visible. I like the idea of being able to flip through a virtual photo album and see my metamorphosis.
Also, with videos I can subject you more efficiently to my awkwardness, and charm.

I will also post weekly updates covering everything else this blog is about. My personal ramblings, rants, love, random adventures, and my Yoda like wisdom.

- With all the love in my superhero heart,

Avery Eros Finley